I find myself in a similar situation, a few years on, a few months later.

I am dedicated to my work.

I will work as hard as I can, I will do my all. History does not repeat itself, but it sure does rhyme.

I will undertake my biggest personal project to date, which will be to become a ******** ****** ** ****. This is what I am working towards.

Do not bring yourself down to anybody’s level, do not try to bring yourself to, nor meet, any other’s. You will become.

This is a similar situation; I find myself working towards something bigger than I – destiny (possibly?). This is not about me, but thy future. It is not about the act of doing, but about the action taken towards the goal. From there, we go again.

I finally learnt how to pronounce it, ‘cyclical’. We all live in cyclical existence, as suggested above. But in another sense too…

All of those actions, that remain un-done. They travel around and around in your head, circling back every other day/week/month or so. If you have something to distract yourself with, that’s great (in fact it’s needed) but it is just a plaster. Some action must be taken, doing nothing is always an option.

Avoid cyclical existence at all costs, there is no reward.

You do not need that thing, rather it is action that must be taken. Shift the cycle.