…the stark opposite of yesterday and last night, it just goes to show the power of ….TIME.

I am feeling exited for life and excited for a number of things. I am listening to music in my kitchen and it’s fun. Fun on my own, but imagine with another person. I’ve done it a handful of times. The first was the night I lost my virginity, actually. The second time was cooking fajitas, we got slightly distracted before the whole room was full of black smoke; not good but fun. I’m also joking, I’ve done it a plenty of times but funny how some times get lost and some etched.

I welcome myself back to writing with open arms, it fulfils something within me. I met a writer at the weekend, a novelist. I’ve known him for years in fact, although I’ve never read anything he has written.

I’ll always be all right. Is that bad to believe.

I have a thought, I had a thought? My brain has not been able to think of the very same thing I just thought of, frustratingly, perhaps one day it will return. This has turned into something of nothing really, there is a big piece I’m working on but that too has been forgotten. I need to ensure I get into the swing of this, always ready, always equipped. There’s more to life than this, there is more to life in you, more to life within you. I feel sorry for the sorry, all the lonely people where do they all come from? Does it come from within. Amazing isn’t it, so many sad people, but I’m glad to say I’m not one of them. I have been sad but that’s besides the point – I’ve got so much going for me but I just act in oblivion. Why can’t I share what I know easily? I know a lot for someone who claims they don’t know anything. There is a balance needed, a lot of people are aware of that. But what is the extent of their awareness. I must give myself balance. I am top heavy, lop-sided both physically and mentally, walking and talking, thinking and doing. This is the basis of my frustrations. Environment is a big thing so I’m lucky that is changing. I am not prepared to help people that have only gone and helped themselves for months on end. I can’t believe it.