What a crazy period of time. I’ve enjoyed myself thoroughly, despite finding myself discover a whole new meaning of the word dilemma. That bit wasn’t pleasant, but we saw it through with a little help from my friends…

People make me laugh. I am a person. I make myself laugh; sometimes.

I’m retreating to the south of france as we speak, I’m flying but I’ve just had bangers and mash with a pint for breakfast. I’m not really sure why I’m doing this, or going on this break away but my parents called and I must respond to the call of duty…I wish to go beyond it one day, hopefully sooner rather than later. I’ve just looked at the weather -> it’s hot, hopefully I’ve packed suitably; 5 pairs of unclean underwear, 3 pairs of fresh socks, 2 tshirts, swimming trunks and shorts. I’ve been non stop recently, hence the unclean underwear. 1) wash the underwear , or will I need it ? Hopefully in a pool most of the time. I must remember to wear suncream, factor whatever’s on offer but the SPF essential. I’m glowing right not, haha, I’m flowing right now, that was meant to be, auto correct does my head in. I’m sat in a weird airport bar restaurant, the staff and I mean none of the staff seem to want to be here, maybe it’s part of the culture? People have asked me what I want to do ultimately, or what am I working towards, where on earth is the end goal? I can picture it and I have told a few people, but it’s to do with culture and things; the way people behavior the attitudes and and mindset they hold that influences their behavior. I met a man recently who does exactly what I want to do, who would have thunk it…he’s even written a book! How did I meet this man you ask? Well by pure planned happenstance, really. I’ve read this back and I’m upset by my sort of explanation of the word culture – it is an overarching theme but I’ve not done it justice by any means, I even asked this man, a so called, dare I say, expert in the field…I can’t remember what he said, I must read his book – I’ve got his business card. I must say thanks to my friend right now who told me honestly and truly I’m not ready to push on, I need to chill for a bit. Maybe it’s in my head, there’s more people doing more than me … is there? I’ve used, ‘…’ a lot today .who knows why… maybe it’s a suggestion that things are pending, loading and buffering. A new way of living, a new routine and a new, hopefully, application of discipline. The power of the triple. Dubai was a strange place, I think with, and through the power of hindsight i didn’t achieve what I wanted to achieve but I did achieve other things. The environment I found myself in did not afford the opportunity for my….skullduggery, wait wtf, don’t worry I just heard a women cheers to skullduggery from across the room. I googled what it meant, I just remember that book people read. I read James and the giant peach when I was in Year 1 and finished every one of his novels by year 2, now that must mean something. Bald and Bankrupt is writing a book, his YouTube career is over. I don’t think he’s that talented a man just more raw and real than most hence the success. Perhaps raw and real is a talent in its self, I think it is. Being a being is hard sometimes but I find myself in a conflict, me and L think life is hard but my honest and true friend explains it’s very simple. I’d rather agree with the latter and most of the time I do, I hope I overcome where I am and see the light of the latter. Maslows hierarchy of needs has been a god send, is a god send for all and most things – apply to life, apply to you and apply it all those and that around, you.