I am going to try and write this whole thing without using the abck backsapace backspace, its harder than it , you think.

I recently watched a Van Neistata Neistat video on the typewrtie typre typewriter , and how he uses it and likes it as a tool he mentioned something about there being no backspace on the typewrite r so trying to replicate somehitn something silmsim similar here, youll get the gist and understand be able to read y my words sis what im trying to say, possibly.

I just trie d reading that back, this may or may not work.

Fastforward to my life huh that doesnt make sense anywahhh

fastforwad to where i am right now sitting on my bed in a s hitty flat well not a flat a bedroom in a shared villa that smells like really smells this place has potential thats why i am here. however my life is and feels like it has always been unfufilled potential so im out, on to somehwere new very soon…that is another story for another day r.e unfufilled potential thing

i have been here for just less than two months now and its been pretty chi fuckin streessfull not gonna lie i understand that there is only no such thing as stress but eustress and distress…i was the epitome of distress one day and the opitome of eustress another … this isnt sustainable. theyre both a state of mind anyway

i lacked an understanding of ppurpose when i felt distressed so it led me to questions how have i ended up here and the universe bringing me to a place i have never had any desire to go to what am I here fore, what is this going to allow me to achieve

i looked within my self, deeeply hours alone in a hotel room writing in notebook i bought made out of moleskin if you know what i mean and i found the root cause of how i have ended up here or sorry, root purpose of why i have come all this distance and left everything i knew behind (temporarilty)

now im not going to tell you what it is because thats for me to live with perhaps one day it wil come out or perhaps one day it will show youll just ahve to wait and see ….i am one to preach honesty authentcitiy and realness but and so is keeping something to yourself a lack of honesty is it beingn dishonest, i dont know

i dont know anything buts thats alright

i dont know my purpose here or anywhere for that matter but i can have a good idea of what i want it to be